quarter life crisis?

So I decided to fulfill (my english has deteriorated from too much auto correct that in this sentence itself i had two mis-spellings of  of fulfill and deteriorated. oh boy. All this quick english and social media will make my english teacher in primary and secondary and newswriting prof in uni flip. Must take note before I become one of those yuppies with really bad english ( or so the adults like to think)) what i written in my previous blogpost today as a start - to write more. :)

In between the first paragraph and second my comp decided to do an impromptu shut down but chrome was able to restore it....hoorah!:D (wait a minute, i know what you are thinking. I am still a firefox fan, but the browser has some problem on my home comp...so i'm using chrome here. Firefox you know i still love you. ;P)

found this cute firefox vs chrome pic from mr google. 

Ok, so after much digressing in the first paragraph I would really want to go back to HELLO Quarter Life Crisis! Does it even exist?! I believe it's really much something people make up along the way. 

"Hey there's mid life crisis. The younger generation need one too ok - we need a label, term or something to express our difficulties at this stage." And thus i guess that was how quarter life crisis came about. I did a quick google and here you go! What is coined as quarter life crisis is:

"feeling doubtful about their own lives, brought on by the stress of becoming an adult"

I guess this is pretty true, at every point in life when we make transitions it is a scary one. Kindergarten to Primary to Secondary to Pre U to Uni to Work to Marriage to having Kids. For some it is more smooth flowing, for some we have to stumble along the way to understand what is to make out of each stage and path of our life during that period. Rather than say it changes us, i would put it as it molds us. 

I recently just turned 25 in March. Ah great, announce to the world how old i am, smart move. smart move. -.- but then again as a friend who pointed out to me that not many people would put their birth year on fb so brazenly for everyone to know their age, i flatly replied, and that is my age, i am that old, so be it. 

haha. I never really realise how old it is to be 25 years old, for starters, I thought 24 years old last year was pretty close 18-19 year old age....boy was i horrified to do the math and realise it was a good 7-8years. *oh god help me. i'm living in oblivion* 

I guess me being so slow to realise is pretty much in line with my character and whole life. I am never one of those witty smart ass kid who thinks and reacts quick on their feet. In fact i mostly feel that i belong to the 慢半拍group. Studies wise showed pretty clearly, but i was a hardworking kid ok. 有一点笨笨有一点傻傻的but老天爱笨小孩 right? Must be lah. haha. 

Physiologically and psychologically i also mature a little slower. I learn and want things differently. My body also reacts more slowly. At the age where everyone was having adolescence "pimples" I was having non of that. At poly most people clear up and start soaring like swans. Me? I flared with pimples after poly years somewhere beginning of my Uni days. (Those were some dark days. Funny to say now, but #Truestory. Bad skin is no joke) At the age where most girls are very into brands, makeup and dressing prettily I took in non of that even when all my housemates were busy shopping in the outlets I was happy getting minimal stuff. 

I think mentally I have finally reached their state of mind then (2 years ago) so if i were to go back in time to the time when i were in the states I would be able to appreciate alot more things. That being said, no i am still not all girly girl. I still like being cool, and handsome appropriately sometimes, not all days feel like girly days. lol

Filed my taxes for the first time this year, paying for my own insurance and those card bills of my buys i am owning responsibility of myself. Partly, minimally, because after all one is living under the same roof with my parents which i'm grateful for. With my keep, i probably am not able to feed myself and have a sturdy roof over my head.yet. (property prices, can you go down or not?). I do take everyday alot for granted seemingly, but i am very thankful actually. :)

I guess my transition of quarter life crisis comes in the form of seeing every other friend around me getting married with plans of the future. For me now as much as I try to see, it seems pretty hazy, pretty foggy. I want to step into the next transition of life, i want to provide as much as i can for my parents cause they are growing older, i need to learn to be a pillar and not just a bamboo stick to row the boat. And as per how i've done it my whole life, I'll take it a step at a time, I won't rush into anything just because I'm drowning, and i need a life buoy, for if i ever do that it would be most selfish to not only whomever but myself. That being said, sometimes I wonder if i shouldn't be so rational. And be selfish, cause someone once asked me, isn't it easier to just take care of yourself and disregard the consequences? But i do, if i selfishly do stupid stuff for stupid reasons and then feel bad about it. wouldn't that be more self harming?

O well, I've pretty much gone through life in this manner of slow and steady, (never 100% sure cause who knows what tomorrow brings. but when i decide to venture out, i'll put my best into it. never failed) i'll get there. :) I can't fail myself, nor my parents at least. and yesh. i still believe i am that hardworking kid who works for my future, boring and uncool to say, but at least i can say I try to make the best choices my future. :) act yi ge hardworking only. lol

So 神啊， 再一次帮一帮， 这个糊里糊涂的以25的小妹妹。 不老但也不小了。 哈哈。its time to find that someone to melt the black frozen ice block, with my rationality, fear? and stubborness. I doubt the higher powers can help me...but still. somehow? one will never know. If not, i can always travel around the world in my own independence. :D 

there. i decided not to end it on a gloomy note. 

 pic from fanpop.com

And so i always secretly somehow hope, as slow as i am in blooming, it does not turn out to be a bad thing in life. it will be as Fa Zhou Mulan's father put's it...

"the most beautiful of all"

Writings - Long and short

Just when I thought short life social media is killing in depth writing and in turn a kill in traversing emotions.

I realised I was wrong. Ever since I became a full fledge working adult with responsibilities, the amount of posts on my blog grew visible lower and lower and lower so much so I am ashamed to face my readers. (If I even have any. The atrocity that I assume I do!:p)

I'm such a bad blogger. I never realised so until a very old post of mine was dug out by uncle tan and shared on fb. Shock I was. Reread ing my old post I realised how well I was able to convey my thoughts down. Yea I'm probably being very unbashly unshy about it.

this was it, and yet again, i have to thank you uncle tan for reminding me how i have been lacking in terms of creative imput and thinking ever since i decided to be a responsible adult. i didn't totally lose it, it just wasn't able to take first priority. I will remind myself to be more active in it! :)

This thought comes from the fact that nowadays since I don't have time and (yea I'm lazy I don't make the additional effort to sit and blog in depth thoughts, I just want to ramble in the shortest time possible) I tend to do alot of verbal vomit on twitter and Instagram. All these move very fast and sometimes we just want to get out of the system fast, to get even a response maybe?

As good as it maybe bad with the lack of in depth-ness in emotions it does keep people friends family (well those who have each other on the various social media platforms) pretty well informed first hand of what each other is going through.

After seeing my old post resurface I was regretting how much time I spent on fast going short message social media instead of my 8(?!) year old blog.

But that night as I was being regretful two post made me really happy.

One - an Instagram post from Ann nee:

 

well, i did look like an idiot here because i was doing a silly face. 

She develop of a photo of a photo where Didi, lelle lelle and I were being silly from the day before and uploaded it to tag us so we could see it. It was probably just a small thing for her but to me. It was a aww moment of the day. I was grinning silly like a little girl, well maybe she printed the pic because her two bffs were in the shot but I chose to believe she chose to print that picture too because I was a special friend to her too. ( I know right, Im such a unshy person)
But it does make one feel warm and fuzzy.


Two - A tweet from Maressa

 

My twinnie told me she was able to recognise me even though my back was facing the camera in this video ( it was a prank video for RTv) she said I recognised you even though you didnt turn and I asked how she said it was "very me" the things I did.

Warm fuzzy moment 2. I mean I'm not even sure I can recognise all my friends in that kind of situation where no face and very little details were shown please.

Then it pretty much came as a realisation that why did I end up working where I am is because I pretty much loved blogging and fell deep for the rest of the other sorts of social media platforms.

Just like how the tv can never replace the radio. I think short form messaging social media platform can t and should never wipe out my liking for blogging.

Both are great platforms in their own right. But most definitely I should blog more.

So two of my new year resolutions this year which I didn't write in the beginning of the year ( cause those were generic ones, what. I couldn't think of anything then. It was too sudden. And the whole point to think through ly something you want to do and do it right? ;))

1. Photography - shoot more photos

2. Writing (blogging)

As I grew busy I forgot about all my passion and interest. This year I shall recollect them back. My life needs colour other than chasing people, time and money. Even though they are essential.

What have you forgotten and left behind while trying to grow up?

Sought after that simple thing which gives you simple pleasures and great smiles.

you start and end with the thing you loved in the first place.

found this the other day online and thought yea...this is pretty true. Sometimes we get so lost in chasing and wanting to 'get better and bigger' we kinda get lost in the whole rat race.

Sometimes it's not that important to be 'that important' yes, it's good to always seek improvement but we must always remember what we love and stick close to it while being ourselves. If you get lost, go back to the basics, remember why you held on in the first place. All outer obstacles are secondary, if they stand in your way travel back to just do what you love, grit your teeth, you can pull through somehow. :)

Happy 2013!

Hello there! :D Finally I'm sitting down to blog...we are now 3 weeks into the first month of 2013. How has your year been going? How is it treating you? Hope everyone's beginning of this year has been going pretty well pretty smoothly...

It's a new year so time to put things especially all the unhappy events of the past year and start moving on! So this year as per last year or wait wrong. It was 2012 as per 2011 i spent it counting down with my buggers. :) <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">
this year's activity was to do up a time capsule! and so here we go writing in our new year's resolution...but i think we kinda did it a little wrongly though...:P

 here we are!

why do i say we kinda got it wrong?

New year's resolution is usually written and placed in place to frequently remind you of the thing you need to be mindful of / change during the year to complete it. 

A time capsule is usually a memory or a lil something you wanna tell 'the you of the future' 

and so 我们弄错了。 lol

anyhow. it'll be good to see if we did remember what we said and managed to work to it. 

our first photo together of the year. i love this people! (as you can see because i'm putting this caption, i am pretty anal about who lands in my picture and thus it has some edits. :P and no i'm not sorry because i'm a horrible monster like that)

when i was writing my new year's resolution then i wasn't sure what i wanted for the year (well, the reason i've never set resolutions is cause i don't fulfill it. haa!) so despite what i've wrote, i shall write another resolution, i have come up with stuff i would like to fulfill for the year! :D in another post!

And so looking through my instagram pics let me see how the new year has treated me..

 on the first day back to work we went to this super awesome ramen at tanjong pagar. Really really good soup base!! :D it serves free flow tau gei and egg. yums. :)))

 i received a surprise gift from foong. omg so loved:D

and also the xmas cards and gift i sent her way back and thought was lost along the way finally got into her hands. it's really a happy thing to know that your sincerity reaches it's addressee. 

met part of my travel family....it's really been a long time. 

i've not seen cat, fahr, twinnie and ivan since i'm not too sure when....but it's definitely more than 8 months i should think....so long. seems like everyone is doing pretty good, is always good to see and hear :)

 

 it's really late now, i shall end this post here and hopefully come back soon as i previously said to write up my resolutions here. 

but definitely one of the more important ones is to do more of what makes me happy. 

you too. 

make that your resolution. 

:P

Can't wait to see the rest of everybody i haven't met in the new year yet! :D

Thiong Bahru Bakery

*this is an outdated post, I'm not sure why I didn't post it. Was probably trying to find time to edit it proper but never got down to it.....oops.*

Ting and I are avid bread fans. Ok, I'm a little more picky I love my breads fresh from bakeries. I have come to dislike those white gardenia bread unless they are toasted or made into French toast.

Why? Not int because of the taste, but also because of the texture. I am a big fan of good texture. But this doesn't mean I must have expensive breads, quite the opposite!

One of my favourite breads are the cheap kinds freshly baked in the Coffeeshop without preservatives the home loaf our parents used to get as kids.

And of course I enjoy all those other yummy treats from the good expensive bakeries too. If only they weren't so pricey...but if so maybe my weight would just balloon....! Haha...

And so ting and I have been wanting to try this "Tiong Bahru Bakery" for some time after hearing raving reviews about their croissants.

After a few attempts we finally met to go there. Well, me being me I thought we would be going to the one in tiong bahru cause it is called that right? And my googling skills were not working on that day.

I didn't know they had a second branch in Raffles City now. So yay for for all of us because it is more convenient now!:))

I wasn't thinking of writing a post for these so pardon my lack of photos.

After much getting lost and guidance from ting we finally reached! From the line in the display me being me i wanted to order EVERYTHING! haha...

But we collected ourselves and order 4 things.
The much acclaimed about must order plain croissant, the chocolate croissant , a cheese and ham something and a pandan fleur ( that's how I rmb it is spelt) haha...

And a mocha and lemonade. If you ask me about the house drinks I will tell you straight, DON'T even bother.My mocha was horrible. :(

Ok so yea now that's done let me continue...the service was good they were all very smiley and attentive even towards a blur customer like me who needs to huh a few times to understand them. Love places with good nice service people! :))

They offered warming of food services too...when we went there were not so many people so we picked a nice couch seat. (Which happen to be just outside the kitchen)

I always wanted to work in a bakery...just so I can bring home bread everyday...lol lols..greedy!

When they sent our warmed up cheese an ham pastry it seemed a little blacker than usual but to us, it was alright I guess. We are not so picky..lols..

So a round of Instagram photos we go! Just as we were about to tuck in a lady came out of the kitchen and walked pass our table and walked back.

She requested to take away the little burnt cheese and ham pastry cause she told us it was over burnt. As there was none left in the counter she told us they would make a fresh one for us immediately in 20mins. We were not in a hurry so we were alright.

But we were quite sad to think the burnt one might have been thrown away...nooo! Give us! But that is their respect towards quality.

Later learnt the lady was the chef inside! Respect their love towards giving customers good quality! And as a form of apology for the bad quality presented to us they gave us a free brownie!

Talk about good service!! This place is awesome:))

And this was what made me want to write this post. A bakery whose baker does not compromise on quality just because of pricing is a one worth my. Recommendation. I believe with a place like this, it can only get better!

My recommendation based on what I've try is still the plain croissant. It stands strong! Must eat if you go there.


Didi told me their burgers are really good too! I haven't tried them yet..but might the next time...they have too many new things to keep me going to try all of them!

Go try them out today! One in Raffle city (I personally feel this is very accessible And the other in Tiong Bahru, but a little out of the way. But for good bread, worth it). :D

Denim. i know denim. I have been wearing it half my live pls!

Almost everyone who knows me knows that I am the poster child for being the Tees & jeans kinda person. or Shirt/blouse and jeans kinda gal.

Ok. Saying poster child is putting too much of myself in the beautiful ray of light because who am i kidding, when was I ever poster child material? ahh. in my dreams. not too bad there!

because my thighs are not in proportion to my hips and yada yada...i only learnt how to wear jeans and only that in my years of growing up from primary to secondary...so you can't exactly blame my fashion sense. I couldn't fit into other stuff well. lols...

Usually people find jeans suffocating....but for me the jeans I chose to wear are almost like second nature...of course i do have to admit there are those few which i would love to rip apart once i put them on.

But....denims have really been part of my life...it's been there for every other occasion...I would have inserted more example pics...but facebook only go that far and i have to sieve through waay too many! So let me show how i rock the fashionistic denim my way & how it blends right into my daily life and important points thereafter...

from when i go to USS to meet my favourite Kung Fu panda Po. 

i usually don't go so far back when looking at photos but since i was on this topic i found this pic very apt...

(an almost graduation day photo with my buddies then whom i've not met in a loong time)

doesn't it remind you of FRIENDS sitcom?

to visiting Ming's very important family day visit at his OCS

to celebrating a friend's birthday

and just trying to look cool. 

and feeling like a total rockstar. in tees. shades and denim looking o-so-cool. 

*ling is so going to kill me with this pic. but i think quite cute mah! :P

it makes picture perfect memories. 

well faded. *pun unintended.lols

you can see how important my denims are to me because i wore it on my first date. 

*ahems*

a girl can fantasize can't she?

In fact we all are rocking it out in denim! ( i think. wes are you?)

 all the way to meeting Mr President Obama. 

see my denims are awesome. 

they follow me throughout my lifetime. 

when it's cold it's probably the most practical wear pls. 

someone said something about being inflexible in it..?

See what i just did there? 

I made all your you go through my pictures of meee!

vicious. bhb. 

lols. 

So...

i feel the best denim style to suit the denim wearing me would be 

 it was down to this two...

*drum rolls*

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after much thinking i believe starlet straight would be my choice. 

Because I like clean cut cuts. 

Nothing too fancy, very to the point,  like me.
>.< 

hahaha. :p

With clean cuts I feel it can transcend time, denim is something which has already transcend time and all fashion to let people know it is here to stay. I would like to be known as someone like that, not always chasing newest trends and fashion because it is changing. I know i wouldn't be able to keep up, i want to keep something timeless.Something i can effortlessly throw on a plain top and still bring me places, make me feel comfortable. 

:)

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 i was looking through my pics and thought this would totally sell for a denim pic. 

*WIN*

if you would like us to be denim models, yes, we are more than willing. 

so hesitate no more cause we are rocking it out. 

;))

heh. 

i have no idea where my confidence comes from. 

from wearing a everlasting comfy pair of that denim.;P

see! we looked so good in our denim that when we asked momo opapa to help us take pic of us with the background he got tempted to shoot our denims instead. 

i rest my case. 

because that's the power of friendship.

i wrote this post on instagram a few days back but i though since it was such a long thought I would like to share it here too...

(it was meant to go out as a tweet. but 140 characters ain't enough for me to say it. bah. so it went onto instagram and now reproduced here...:))

Reading another article on this kid getting bullied so bad till she decided the world was not worth living for...:( 
And thinking...boy. I must really have been lucky all my life...:) I have heard of friends or friends of who have been bullied/teased/ostracised some part of their school lives especially sec and pri... From where I came from in my two schs either way everyone (popular.not) would have at least a friend to standup for them and just be..a friend...? 

Ppl laugh at ulu north but I guess we must be awesome cause I don't see it happening while studying here... What branded schools? Mine was just as awesome too!

And I must be really lucky or did something awesome in my pass live to have a bunch of buds I found frm pri, sec, poly & uni school to stick tgt with me till today. 

Xiexie I realised that it takes me quite awhile to be close to people...I'm shy like that. But if I'm close enough to irritate you (well in a friendly manner. Haa) then we must be quite close huh! Heh

*and i forgotten to add, if i ask you for things for help or anything, means we are close like that too, cause to learn how to ask for something is a big step for me. I hate why i am so shy like that. tsk.

I hope bullying-stops. Everyone find that friend of theirs:)

....

That was my thought of the day then.

Family and friendship. 

this are the only two important things in my life currently. 

I can't even begin to imagine what i would do without them...

Coming home to an empty house without warmth, then i would rather stay out. 

going into a world without friendship feeling all alone, then i'd rather drift away. (speaking of which i love magnetic north's drift away song!the mv is quite apt for this topic!)

here you go! thought the mv was quite nicely done. by wfp of course!. :)

so thankfully, this two fit very nicely in my life. 

i lack maybe that one thing to make life complete but at least till date the other two have been fulfilling, and your friendships mean the world to me, my inner circle. 

not very big because i don't dream of being a social butterfly. 

 those who know will know cause i know. :)

(act yi ge poetic. lols)

and between the two, i treasure your friendship more i believe. (?)

maybe. 

there are so many things i dare to be rash about. (usually my practical self will speak first. oh but anyway...)

but with our friendship...

i hold it like a precious china ware.

 ...

so thankful for all the friendships i've made through the years...even the ones where now it seems that we have drifted apart. 

i really thank and appreciated you being part of my life then. :)

you were  (and still are) awesome guys. 

if you are reading this. go be someone's friend...especially that tortured soul you see....

you may just be the last glimmer of warmth...

we all hate to be judged. so if you can. don't. 

be a friend. 

you never know whose life you are bringing joy and new meaning into.