Thursday, June 12, 2008

a sick sad man.

lilaLienations: i saw this on tv today..and i somehow like this phrase...:
"When you learn to accept and embrace yourself (who you are), people will learn to accept you naturally too."
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it has been hogging the headlines for the past few days...and you would be lying if you say you haven't the slightest idea what im going to talk about...well..in case you really have no idea as you read on, you can read the article **here**.

So who am I talking about..? Well many has labeled this case as the Tokyo knifeman killing rampage case. Really, i got very fired up when i first read about the news and heard of it. In my head i was thinking
" WTH you, idiotic pig. You want to die, go ahead already! no one's stopping you, you know. But don't drag other people along. You want to die, that's your problem not anyone else's. Selfish. Every single person injured and passed on had nothing to do with you whatsoever, no wrong so there can't even be the talk of revenge."

I was being Mean? Maybe Sadistic? Maybe. Angry? Very. Sympathetic? Only for the innocent people.

I didn't really care, I was fuming...thinking of all the innocent people who were minding their own business or spending time with their family, and before they knew it tragedy befall on them. Feeling sorry for them...

More and more reports come to light this few days after the incident...it was said of what he think and felt and reportedly actually posted his intentions on killing online from his handphone( ok, i don't know how this works, but its very popular in japan) Here were what he wrote:

Sunday June 8: texts for a killing

05.21 Sleepy. Will drive into [the crowd] and, if the car becomes useless, I will use a knife.

Goodbye everyone

05.34 I can’t get over this headache

05.35 Rain is forecast. Bad

06.02 I’m used to playing the role of good man. Everybody is so easily deceived

06.03 Am I incapable of having friends?

06.10 It seems the road I planned to take is blocked. After all, everything is against me

06.31 The time has come. Let’s go

06.39 It seems I’ll be battling against my headache

06.49 . . . against rain

06.50 . . . against time

07.30 What a dreadful rain . . . even though I prepared everything perfectly

07.47 Even though the scale is small, I’ll do what I decided to in the rain

09.48 Into Kanagawa and having a rest. Things are going well at the moment

10.53 Awful jam. Will I be in time?

11.07 Shibuya. It’s awful

11.45 Reached Akihabara. It’s the day of “pedestrians’ paradise”, isn’t it? Just minutes left now

taken from TIMESONLINE


The messages ended there, so i guessed after that he went on the killing spree at Akihabara. In the articles i read i summed up that this guy was somewhat of a geek and he was tired of being one. He had no friends, lack luck in girls had to live up to society or family expectations since young. And when he couldn't he would hit his mother. From an online article

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He complained that his parents had sometimes done his homework for him as they wanted him to "look perfect," Japanese media reported.

"As they wanted to boast about me to other people, they would finish everything to make me look perfect," he wrote>>

In short Kato said he had "gotten sick of the world"

I read on with disgust, disbelieve and somehow sympathy. Maybe all his life he was living inside a pressure cooker of needing to conform to be a certain way. And maybe he just couldn't do it, he was a volcano waiting to erupt, and erupt he did, snap!causing a big tragedy.

I am in no way condoning this mans actions and say it is by any chance at all forgivable. It is just that, it just seems so sad, because of circumstances he lost hope in this world.

And i believe you can lose everything, but not hope, once you lose hope, the whole world switches off its light. *ahh. maybe thats why they say a glimmer of hope?*
That's why as much as im still angry i am with a tinge of sympathy, just so little teeny weeny bit. Really, anyone can just snap...but still, its not a good reason or for that matter not a reason at all to kill anyone.

If your big on Jap stuff, you would have heard of The train man *read here** whose story is a true story of this geeky guy who finally had a story of his own with a happy ending. :) i like this show. Well, see, not all stories have the same ending...not all geeks come with a bad ending. So who cares your an otaku fan, be true to yourself and be a good human. And what's even wrong with being a otaku fan..? who cares what they think.

So at the end of it...i guess in the mordern society we're all living in huge pressure cookers, being forced to conform to something else at times and sometimes we feel like we want to snap. Take a break, take a deep breathe,take a step back, enjoy life's little moments. :)
Yesh, if that's not enough, you can call me, i will listen to your rants..haha...:P

light at the end of the tunnel.
there will always be light at the end of the tunnel.
Don't lose hope just yet. Hang in there.

sunrise or sunset?
For who knows, what this sunset and the next sunrise will bring us. :)

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