Little encouragement keeps me going:)

For some reasons people close to me always think I'm the little bubbly one who jumps around happily...

I don't mind actually...it's good to be the crazy bouncy one..lols.

As much as i am crazy and happy most of the time, I am also pretty much a big 大哭包 was so as a kid but got better when I was bigger...I still cry a lot but just not in front of anybody now if I can help it...it's a good form of release actually. Rekkha used to say the one good thing about me is my fast ability for positivity. I do admit, it's not always there..but 70% of the time it is! :)

I need courage too, and I find it by releasing all the unhappiness and them coming back alive again. I fall and cry easily, but after that I jump back up alive again! Like a 不倒翁!

During periods like these I love to eaee encouraging stuff or funny pics...these were the stuff shared with me...

(Ok I'm using my iPhone to blog. I have no idea if my photos will turn up where I want them to be)-_-;;

Let me share them with you..hope your days brightens up a lil!:D

只要还有不甘心，就还不到放弃的时候

从以前到现在， 都是这样的一个人。 对于自己很在乎的事， 如果心有不甘， 就是会心里很不舒服， 不想去放弃。 


就因为这个不甘心不舒服我硬着头皮去追去问。 终于今天得到了一个答案。 if I were to put it, it would be i got one bad news and one good news...which one would you like to hear?


the bad news is, 薪水会比较少。 but it's also not a bad news lah, to me, 只要我努力，　没有什么事是办不到的！（as ling say, be positive!:))
the good news is, 好象觉得终于有人要我了， 还有会是在自己喜欢的地方。

是自己去争取会来的机会我觉得特别不容一。 可是有可能也因为酱， 才会懂得比别人更珍惜。 


星期一， 祝我一切都顺顺利利吧！ 好不容一好象要lucky一点了。 虽然因为面对过不一样的事情而会有一点灰心，会小心一一的去走每一步因为还是会一点点怕怕的， 可是我就是那个打不死的小外星人！ｍｕａｈａｈａｈａ.　很快就又会神经很大条的晃来晃去。　风水轮流转,　这次好运论到我了！heheh. 


Gambatte mo! I will jia you de!




Thank you for the past love and luck shared with me, well, if you don't mind, keep them coming...Wish me bucketful of luck! and share lotsa Love! :))) muacks. thank you.

i prefer a smooth sailing sea.

a acquaintance i met at a headhunt (for sales people, they wanted me, are very nice and all, but its sales, if you don't sell the package you have to eat yourself. and many i've spoke to warn me against it, so i'm listening. so yea, you get what i mean, but that's another story) said to me in one of those small talks:

" Having rejections is more interesting right...? I mean like who would want a smooth journey all the time, it'll be pretty boring...All the more when people say no, you would be fired up...." This was in response to me asking..."so I think half the time people just ignore you and walk off am I right?" At this point of me asking this, it was a friendly small talk, we kinda gotta know each other and were comfortable speaking..

Hearing his response i just kindly smiled and nodded and continued the conversation...but in my head I was thinking, man, i would really rather a 'boring' road if it meant i would have to face less rejections in my life, or more security in that sense, he probably never really faced with big rejections in his life before, maybe apart from bgr. I live on the tenterhooks of bigger rejections and feelings of dejection, at every damn turning point in life. But hey, i haven't died yet, so i'm facing it with optimism. But honestly, if it meant a lil more boredom, maybe i'll just go for that, I enjoy an interesting bumpy ride too, but if there ain't any, i'll settle for a smooth sailing one and just enjoy the scenery to go with it.

and yet of course, while i'm saying these, mine is pretty much still quite flowly, because when you scream frustration, remember, there'll always be someone out there who needs to scream out louder.

B+!
Be Positive!;)

Continue Sending me Luck pls!

Just sent out my Thank you letter to the lady who did my first interview today (first because if i'm lucky and impressed them, i'll get a second. o god! plss! i really hope i did good this time!) Actually in writing all these covers and thank yous and resume, I don't feel it shows my true writing capabilities (wah. chey, as if i really have:P), no i mean sincerely, because in these letter its not really "me". I would never boast of myself to be of what and what capabilities and blah blah...aka selling myself in those manner, i know it is needed, it is industry practice, but writing my thank you letter earlier i felt that I really wanted to sincerely just say thank you, but as advised it was still best to put in some good words for myself, so yes i did so too, feels weird, its as if its a kind of invisible accepted arrogance (the name for it is call resume writing) but then again, as my friends say, sell yourself, don't shortchange yourself, because you know, you can do the job, just that sometimes we tend to be a little 'asian' and think of ourselves to be less capable than what we can really achieve.

I know if i get it, i can do the job well, though i'm not as bright or what not, i never fail people who put their trust in me. :) that's honesty. :)


Ok. random verbal vomit i was thinking. hahaha....

Anywayyy.

Today was pretty awesome.
Thank you thank you to the people who saw my blog and sent me their love and luck. Arigatou!! big LOVE!!

Had a spate of lucky today, after a spate of learnings, yesh, if this is the turning of good luck, i'm taking it all in baby!:D heh. Had a good breakfast, managed to swop seats with GV and got 3 seats tgt for me, orange and jy for Mayday's DNA premier! jy and fang sent me luck and encouragement!:) thanks you guys:) and i met ting on the way to my interview. How Lucky!:))) She gave me lotsa pointers and tips and encouragement! thanks sis! And the nuffnang interviewer was really nice:) i really hope i made a good impression and didn't come off as a overactive seller making her uncomfortable, i sure hope not....i don't think i did, but i think i did show i was enthusiastic about joining the company, its a good thing right?:) because i really am:)

after the interview, hitched a ride home with family, lucky again!:D

a spate of luckies! sure hope it rubs on for my interview too and they call me back for a second interview and *with all the luck* employ me! heh:) i'm no genius, but i'm as loyal hardworker as you can get;)

....

pardon the whole chunk of words. i was tired but i still wanted to share my happy day and feelings.
a sunflower patch to wish me and everyone who needs it
lotsa hope and luck!
Work hard!
Gambatte!
;)

A graduate in the house yo.

to my dearest sis:

Ting!:) Congratulations! You are now married! o. sorry, wrong one a graduate!
:)))
omg. so proud of ya
local U. don't play play. heh;P
only smart people go there;)

i was saying the other day, apart from getting married this is probably one of the biggest moments in your life now, so no matter how, i barged my way and very buay paiseh-y invited myself to share her special moment and be a good photographer helper of the day. :))
and of course brought all the well wishes of the buggers who wanted to come but couldn't make it to pass to Ting. ( sounds so important, when it isn't actually:P)
photo credit to ting
and so this is me at the big event with sis!:)
they say happiness shared is doubled...so her family and bf and sis go...lets see, that's
Happiness * 5!
taadaa!
:)
Looks just like a poster child for the school.
NTU are you looking? Look no further, this is the shot and candidate!
your welcome, ntu. :)
heh;)
Ting took this:)
Cute right?! I know...!
Actually they were supposed to come with flowers/balloon which ever i liked from the flower shop...but then alas, at according to murphy, what can go wrong will go wrong.
So i went around 3 rounds and couldn't find the flower shop in cwp.
wth. hahaha. when i need it it's never there, when i don't, i keep seeing it....but never mind as least i got something unique to the occasion too...:)
but stupidly, i decided to wear wedges for the day to make sure i looked formal enough (what made me wanted to look formal? i dunno, i didn't wanna throw sis's face i guess? I was worried if i didn't look prim and proper enough it wouldn't look good for her...? think too much. but hey, you friends reflect you too) so pacing up and down so quickly was bad choice in wedge because i got blisters, damn shoes...:S luckily there was one thing right, i had awesome plasters!!!:DD saviors. lol
Sis gave me directions but i was so worried i got them wrong and to meet people who are on their first day of work and couldn't tell me where i wanted to go was right or not...pfft.
but lucky me or clever me *bhb* i found the correct place! woohoo!:DD
but felt bad because i still lacked a bouquet of flowers/balloon...i had it all planned in my head but pfft. murphy, i blame you. lols

so cute this two
:)

this was just randomly snapped of the 1001 people around, apparently the favourite shots of the day were throw your motar board shots and jump shots, ting's friend was injured by the motar board, so dangerous can! hope he's alright already.
there is such a difference between science students and media students. (or, maybe it just me, i'm not that bright)
when ting's friend was chatting with her about her friend's injuries she went (this is not the exact conversation but somewhat)
"...there was alot of blood gushing out, i think it was a surface cut where there's a lot of capillaries that's why the blood can't really cease..."

i was like whaaat? standing at the side, i mean i do get it, i understood every word, but if it were up to me to rephrase the sentence or if it came out from me...i'm sure it would never have sounded that 'cheem' and professional. I would probably have just say it in you very average layman boring way.
"OMG. he was bleeding like profusely. poor fella, wonder if it was a deep cut or something."
That would most probably be how my conversation would have went.

shallow -_-
photo credits to ting
People mountain people sea. A sea of Graduates. Congratulations all!
I don't get the big hoo-haa about the fking did it by the valedictorian, come on, give her a break. I think it's pretty alright and i'm cool with it, it's not as if she were meaning it in the bad way and scolding people, its just an expression, loosen up a little already. We already don't have much freedom of speech, don't go plummeting a little expressionism. They are not arts/media student but yesh, they reserve the right to express themselves. And the way she said it came out natural to me, not offending anyone.
After studying so much and finally getting it done with,
let her use just one f word for expressing her utmost joy.
Chill people chill. v
big us. mini us. :)
we had a Polaroid picture taken earlier when she first picked me up.
So this is a picture in picture.
ooo. inception, but wait, we're awake, so inception doesn't work right?

i always remember saying this...
Ting is top in class, number one.
I'm also top in class from the back.
so i have a bestie from the front of the pack and she has a sis from the bottom of the lot
now thinking, thanks for being friends with a person from the other end of the line.heh. :]

rek says its good, we cover the both ends.
haha...
:P

she done it again, Look forward to your bright future!

Sis
Omedeto!!!:))
We are all so proud of You!

gambatte masu.
fighting.
:)

the people who want to stay in your life will always find a way

i couldn't agree more.

being busy is just an excuse i realise.
yesh, i sometimes partake in this folly too.

at other times you are afraid of awark silences. "I haven't seen this person or talked to this person in so long....i think we might have no common topic to hold a conversation.."
guilty as charged.

but the very least is to just send a message, sms, fb, twitter or even by snail mail let the other party know that hey! i'm still alive! I know you are too! and i'm still pretty much here for you so that you know. :) just that we haven't been able to chat much.

and if you get a reply then things can only get better from there. of course if you haven't been contacting that friend for the last ten years or haven't had a heart to heart chat in a long time, then of course things will have to start out slowly right?

any kind of relationship doesn't happen over night.

so let the people whom you care about know. even if its a very simple gesture, even if your too busy. a simple Hi! can make someone's day because they feel loved that their remember.
Its just a little effort.
They'll probably know your very busy and all the more appreciate the quality time you took just to send the message.

Its not the amount of times its the amount of sincerity, it can be felt. Even though you think unless i call, all other form of communication are cold and hard cause well, they are solid after all....no. sincerity is a little magic, it can be seen if its there even though our naked eye tells us it doesn't exist but our other body organ knows its just there and theres that warm feeling creeping up in you. yesh. that's the kind of deep down happiness.

thats why to say the people who want to stay in your life will always find means and ways to.
Its just making effort, not excuses.

if your not one to extend your hand out first fret not, i'm sure in life there are bound to be people who would extend their arms out to us to shake. in this case, these would be the people who are trying to stay in your life *rejoice!they like you very much indeed to make little effort*

in these kind of instances always remember the chinese proverb (or is it learning. well either or)
礼尚往来
[lǐshàngwǎnglái]

i was originally looking for the english version of this words but unfortunately today #english fail and couldn't find the word in the dictionary despite multiple attempts. I later realised i spelt the word wrongly. #fail max. hahaa...nvm. i learn something new today.
I finally found the correct spelling to the english translation of 礼尚往来 its reciprocation ( i couldn't find it because i thought it was reprocication. -_-)

礼尚往来 or Reprociation is pretty much an Asian thing ( or so that i know of, i'm sure it happens in Western countries too of course) *ps. i left the links on if your interested for the translation/meanings
It just pretty much means to give and take; the motion of it. As in when we recieve we must always remember to give back in return.

It's not so much of give back in monetary form but in a form of gratitude or of same gesture. It makes the other party feel good and you will feel good too. And it will carry on, just like a telephone it rings both way when you talk the other listens and talks back, it works both ways in a give and exchange.
i'm sure you'll be pretty bored just doing either side of the job, you'll probably even feel retarded if no one bothers to answer or talk.

its the same in every situation.

so rmb.
make effort, not excuses and the word reciprocation.

treasure those that want to stay in your life and make meaningful gestures to and you yourself have to put in effort to maintain that certain relationship.
:))

yeaps.
that's all from me today.
a long two cents worth.
be a nice human!

曾经. once upon a time.

I was watching the forensic heroes show on tv the other day and felt that this statement made by one of the leads rather meaningful...usually they do say other meaningful stuff in some programs too, just that my memory gets the better of me....i managed to remember this saying...The supporting lead yisheng told madam ma the police woman in the show (i roughly remember it to be like this):

“。。。听你说曾经 （céngjīng）。 你说曾经好象是对自己 的一种诅咒； 曾经快乐过。曾经拥有过。都好象以后不会再有了， 不会在快乐了。 。。”
so loosely translating it means something like this: you often speak of once being happy, one having happiness entitled to you. Upon listening it seems more like a curse, once, being you are not going to have it again, it all ends with a past tense.

And so Yisheng tells Mdm Ma that she should not speak with such woeful words and choose the brighter ones instead....i never really thought that it was a words which carried a negative feel to it...of course, when theres yin theres yang, turn it around it can be something good also...for ex-convicts its a positive thing I was once an alcoholic, ahh. see, now thats a positive light.

Nothing really much about this post, but i liked that sentence which made me stop to think a little. Did it make you pause to think for a moment too? ;)

happiness can be found even in the darkest time.

Had a less than welcoming day yesterday, feels like i was transported back in time into a not too happy time non the less. Keeping back the tears (it was barely a second), swallowing your bruised pride which had been trampled on, sitting down on that bench and taking a deep breath you know its the start of a long battle, not a battle than everyone can empathise with, even some of your closer ones, you know you will make it through. I know i will.

As you grow up time is not a friend, in fact time never was, was it huh. I have a motivational poster in my cupboard which writes, i value the friend who for me finds time on the calender. But I cherish the friend who for me does not consult the calender.
But, hey, sorry, it doesn't happen. It can't happen, i mean the latter statement....we live in a cruel practical world, everyone is rushing for time for some 24 hours aren't even enough for them to use, to spare a little more out for you...maybe, take a queue number. It's not as if to say their unfeeling they don't care, i guess if i start moping and calling everyone for attention yea, they'll make some time for me...somehow a few weeks later....but then people just don't have the time to 'feel' people anymore. I remember in secondary sch, primary school days...we had all the time in the world to somehow figure out, feel, see, hear our friends unhappiness...they didn't have to spell it out to us...we saw signs...or hints they left on their blogs...faces..messages. Its not that i'm calling attention to myself now, its just a very sad situation humans face in the world today.

So much so, i've already forgotten what it really is like to share and pour your heart out to a friend. Maybe, probably, ok, i guess its just me, i do see some friends who have like their other half, and no, i'm not talking about boyfriends, girlfriends...i mean their buddies who know them just with a twitch of their lips. Time brings people apart, but sometimes, we can't just conveniently blame it on time, communication is a skill which needs to be practised for some, for others, they were born with the 'gift'. You would realised though i have a blog i'm not really the kind to go into everyday details; today i .....and felt .... then i .....so it was really ....Yea, not really my kind of expression, partly because too many details, i get lazy, another part comes along when i'm afraid what i write would not be pleasing to pals who read it. Just like this article. I'm not saying my friends couldn't care if i die, i'm more than positive they have lotsa love for me. i'm just saying time is pretty cruel, work, school, dates, other halves.....they don't even have enough time for themselves, then. who are you?

I realised, and am surprise how ready I could talk unguarded, ok semi, i'm known to be a very guarded person (don't ask me? i guess, if you've been growing up alone for so long, you learn to protect yourself more. and no, i'm not the kind of girl who cries for help from a guy for every other matter) to a friend when i was in the states, over a late night chat while everyone was asleep we just chatted. It seemed like no one around had ever asked me such stuff....and he/she just got it out, we chatted like old friends. i talked about a personality which i seldom really describe, and at that moment i was surprised that i spoke so freely too.

That friend though now very busy, yes, time once told me, you always tell others to come find you no matter what unhappiness they have or help they need, but when i ask you, you actually say You don't believe your problems are worth troubling people for. the friend didn't explicitly say don't think that way, i guessed he/she understood my pride and fear of judgement and wasting friend's time. but it sure did warmed my heart when i hear the same thing i always tell others came back 360 to me. Though, i wouldn't find this friend to share my problems because he/she already has a ton of their own, it was assuring.

Only thing, I still do't have somebody to just share daily grumbles, mope, cry, laugh, share my joy with for every little thing, and the other party treats me as so (well you'll feel stupid if its only one way because its like talking on the line and no one's answering)(Actually ling does call me out for dinner when shes free, once in a while i'll try calling people out but alway fail. its really just me. Shes a really busy gal, but i appreciate just short dinners and chats, sometimes we have more stuff at other times not so much but its still nice, and because shes so busy even when i feel i terrible and wanna call her i think shes too busy, so the next time when we meet i'll say, you know that day i was feeling so horrible and wanted to get ya but you were busy and she'll say hmm. ya, and we'll both laugh. its a mutual understanding i guess. haa. but it does make you feel better sometimes..) Updating friends on each others life is important, sharing nonsensical life's nothing is also bonding. never be judgemental, i'll run. haa. People say friends who are attached really can't spare extra time for you. So yes, i'll still swallow all unhappiness,pmses or worries and go on kicking. I have lived for 23 years haven't i?
Won't die. Just jealous at times, haa! A little down at times, but like a superficial wound, a word of encouragement, a big smile from you and you it heals and i forget all about it until i feel all pms-y again and write a big emo post like such.

but at the end of the day i always learn to count my blessings, i have an awesome family, awesome friends family. i always feel their love. :) thank you with sincerity. :)

life is short. do what you'll ...

Life is short.
Do what you...
feel like
think is right
believe in
enjoy
need to do
want to do
never done before
love

even if the world seems tumbling down, do what YOU want.
no, the world doesn't revolve around you.
no, you can't be selfish.
but at the end of the day, don't live for anyone else other than yourself.
If you can learn to love yourself and find joy, then only can you bring love and give joy to others.

everything will be fine.
tomorrow's gonna be alright.
i always believe mayday didn't lie in that song lyrics.
its an attitude to live by, just like hakuna matata.

Smile from the bottom of your heart.
Smile like theres no tomorrow.
Smile like an idiot. Grin wide.
Smile and Grin like no one's looking because you feel it deep down in your heart.
Prance around for joy, find that innerchild, don't let it fade away and go to sleep.

people around nowadays like to remind me that 2012 is next year as if signalling or reminding me of the seeing 'impending doomsday' slated to come next year.
i for one, am not a belieber believer of such nonsense.
yes, the world is getting more chaotic, natural disasters are coming in a more frequent variation.
i do stop to think and ponder about these at times, as if trying to entertain the thoughts of nonsensical notions of the world ending soon.
then i shake my head and throw away such poisonus thoughts because what good would they be of?
zilch.

we can't live in fear.
but then again theres that famous words - Live everyday as if its your last.
as much as i would love to....
i think it would be kind of hard.

live life so that at the end of it, even if we have tons of regrets we have tons*1000 more times of happy moments that we know we had gone through and are proud of.

don't forget..

lilalienations: i found wifi! so i can blogg! woot wootx!
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Chinese New Year is almost here. and in the new year...

yea;)

I remember a friend asking me, if i die...what do i want to be remembered for. As in, people would say he was or she was a .....

i thought very hard but didn't really know what to reply because, honestly i never thought of a question like that before, farhan asks the weirdest but i would ask rather interesting questions....

and so, not really know how to answer i just half heartedly not convinced said, remembered as a good person? a person good and loyal to friends and fillial to family.

how BORING. ya. i knowwww. damn. how i wish i had a better saying, but yea. i'm boring. can't help it. but at least it was honest? i was thinking, why didn't i choose to be like known for being a superhero, supersmart or stuff like that?

anyway, my answer wasnt the point caused i ask him, so what would youu like to be remembered as?

His answer?
I want to be remembered as awesome.
* i also remember saying, that so sounds like what my bro would reply!* haha.

damn. sounds so cool please. how come i don't come up with cool stuff to say like that. *jots down somewhere in memory* but then again, if it came out from my mouth it wouldn't sound half as convincing. o well. i'll just be me then. haa.

so in the new year, no matter whether you want to be known as being cool, awesome, nice (nice people always finish last they say, so hmmx. and i never admit i'm a nice person, its just saying i tell you. blurrff. lols. i'll treat people as they treat me. yea. ) just be yourself. i think its the most honest way, and frankly, i appreciate it better, i'm sure most people will too.

and lastly to end of with this incredibly cute photo i found:)

says awww.

pre flight random voices.

flying soon.
dad thought i was flying tomorrow and realised in time i wasnt
weather's going to be cold. i hope not freezing.
didn't buy the pull and bear coat. feeling cheapskate. lols.
o weather please be kind to us k?
i hate feeling jittery.
it's not like i'm going long anyway
i want to bring everything including my beloved smelly pillow into the luggage. (don't ask me, mom said so. i'm sure*10 it isnt. *pride XD)
why do i always have pre-jitters before i do anything or go anywhere. literally.even if i'm travelling in sing. since young. i need hynotism to make it go away. haa.
let everything proceed on smoothly.

let all my love ones be taken good care of and feeling happy so i'll be happy free of worries for everyone. :)

and as for me, nothing to be worried about, i'm good at taking care of me. i don't like to, and won't do it unless i need to. so i'm the sort of independent only when needed kind. haa. i won't get get con-cheated to be sold off or stuff. :P

Take care you guys.
loves.
be kind to humans and animals for that matter.
:)

lala's gratitude journal for the day.

i'm getting restless. and here's my new fb pic. i haven't changed one in sometime.

I hate doing scripts using the same old info. boringgg. 5 different scripts using the same info. urgh. especially when i'm not confident i'm getting it all right. but i think the boredom is killing me just as much at the same time.

i wanted to write fml but then, nah. it really isn't anything bad to say so. i'm just being bored and restless. and there are so many more things in the world that really goes awry. so what am i doing giving negative energy over scripts.

Come. Positive. *rainbows and ponys!* :DDD

Yesh. i'm just ranting. but positively. because i just learn about the gratitude journal when i saw it on huaytyng's fb. Not too sure what it is yet, haven't checked it out. But i'm almost sure it is something about being grateful each and every day for the little little things you have in life.

and though yes, i'm bored with my script page for now and have little motivation and inspiration, i do have things i feel grateful for today. i think its so awesome i can say its for the whole week! :) and i really have to give credit to stupid computer website fb because i really enjoyed memories through photos today. :)

I have awesome flautist buddies mates!XD

i tell/remind myself this often. :))
though yes, sometimes we test each others patience, not on purpose, but friends do that. so we're pals. :D<3 lotsa it.




I have an awesome family :))))







I get to meet my favourite people in Sing.
My beloved cousie and aunt. :)
Just enjoying the photos make me happy and fuzzy. :)

I remember someone once told me, *some wise person?show?book?*if you can feel so angry with a person one day or two and still love the person at the end of the day. You gota share a special bond and relationship with the other party.
wise words indeed.
only with people you choose to put in your heart do you feel so yea.
though sometimes i feel less loved. and emo-ey i know. it could be just me. or a phase. whichever.
whatever.
not every relationship is without bumps but at the end of the day all can be well.
to the people who you know i love you. yesh.
you know who you all are
i love you all. mum. dad. you you and you.
:)

....

and that's my not so random out of the blue gratitude journal for the day.
and it was because of the lovely photos which made me smile.
:))

i'm sure this is not a permanent installment on my blog because i'll be lazy and to write such heartfelt post, it comes once in a while...:) people don't really read and appreciate such stuff much anymore.

enemies and friends

heres a random one from a not so random emotion. *i am not refering to any particular person or situation in this instance.just a thought that came by.*

Sometimes there are good things in the enemy, not that i think i have one or want to have one. It's that enemies, you are certain when you are at a mad dash with that you can clobber than up, easily.

But with friends, you, ok, I really don't know what to do. People say i have a good temper, sometimes i wish i do not, actually i think and know i do not, its just that to not cause too much friction i'll collect internal injury(think of it in chinese terms, you might just get it), i'll swallow all my deep frustrations and anger i have of wanting to clobber and rant at the person in their face. And trust me, when i really overboil, it is not a pretty scene, at all. That's why, i very, very seldom do it. But then again sometimes i really wish they would understand why or what i'm annoyed over, i'm quite sure i'm not that petty *ahems. shifty eyes.* I'm not right? But, i never know how to put what i want to say accross to them, i guess i have a fear of offending people, more like friends.

Sometimes i just wish and say o god, if only they can read my mind or i can transfer my mind message over without hurting anyone or the relationship. Friction could be for the better or for the worst, but i guess, call me a scaredy cat. I treasure all the people i treasure too much to want any friction to come between us. Is that a bad thing? Maybe? Maybe not?

I certainly hope it won't be...